I know it's probably completely stupid and irrational, but I've been struggling with my body a lot lately. Well, to be more specific, my weight. I know I'm not overweight or anything, but I weigh more now than I ever have--I'm at about 130, maybe a little less, but I'm short-- and that seems like a lot. Plus, I'm feeling really self-conscious about my stomach, because it's not exactly flat, and I'm bottom-heavy, and...

See what I mean? I pick myself apart, and it's awful. Derek says I'm fine, that I don't have a "gut" (which is another thing--I somehow think I have this enormous pot belly) or anything, but I've got this horrible feeling that he's just saying it to make me feel better. I know part of the reason he left his ex (other than her being a total needy bitch) was because she "let herself go"--she wasn't much bigger than I am when he first met her, but then she put on like 100-some pounds. =/ So, I'm nervous about that, too.

I don't know if it's my thyroid acting up again or what. I've been feeling crappy and lethargic lately, but I've also had a cold for about a month straight. I still eat healthy and exercise as much as possible; I don't do yoga as much as I used to because I don't have time, but I get plenty of exercise in other areas.

And yet I still seem to be gaining weight.

Halp? D= I'm miserable. I've never felt uncomfortable about my weight before.